:hugs:

millions and millions of years
would still not give me half enough time
to describe that tiny instant of all eternity
when you put your arms around me
and i put my arms around you.
- jacques prevert
 
i know there's been more quotes than posts, but i'm so full and so empty at the same time... while he's still mine and i'm still his, the physical void is palpable.

joshua radin is ripping my heart out with a grapefruit spoon these days.  and i can't stop listening.  it's lines like this that kill me and keep me coming back for more:  "It hasnt felt like this before, it hasnt felt like home before you.  And I know it's easy to say but it's harder to feel this way; and I miss you more than I should, than I thought I could.  I can't get my mind off of you."

arrrruuugh. 

even though i wouldn't be seeing his face right now anyway, the knowledge that it's impossible just feels like sandpaper on a sunburn.