today is my uncle's wedding day... we are leaving in about 2 hours to make the 2.5 hour drive to monticello, fl. i hope we get there without any complications.
going to family events such as this always raises my anxiety a little (a lot). and with thanksgiving just around the corner, i feel the stress building. this is a difficult time of year for many people, myself included. this year, i vow to slow down and enjoy the moments and make some good memories. guy will be with his family in atlanta and i will be zipping around northeast florida to see all of mine. amidst the hustle and bustle, i will make a point to savor the time i'll share with my loved ones instead of allowing it to turn into tension - this is my promise to myself.
even though things are not the way i'd hoped or imagined or planned they'd be at this point in my life - even though it sometimes seems like everything's a mess and nothing is as it should be - i have a feeling it is. all is right in my upside-down world. like now, in these quiet moments with a cup of strong, black coffee and only the sounds of my clicking on the keyboard and the pbs channel quietly teaching me how to cook the perfect turkey/mashed potatoes while my love slumbers in the next room... these are the moments i'll cling to when the busyness of the upcoming weeks start to wear on me.
he is so cute in there, entwined in the sheets, curled up with both pillows in an attempt to stay warm despite my body heat having vacated hours ago. he can sleep for days. there's such a peaceful contentedness to him. one that i hope we carry through these days...
